[ She smiles in a way that says, no, probably not. ]
I used to be in a position where I had rules I couldn't break and I had to hope certain people would find out certain things for themselves. [ So even if she doesn't like it, she gets it. ] But right now, I just want to be able to save someone.
[ Two someones. ]
Is there any way you can help?
[ Because she's dead in some kind of purgatory state and feels too powerless like this. ]
I'm tired of being consumed by some entity that only thinks of its own pleasure.
[ she's almost uncharacteristically silent as she kneels down to let fluffybutt back into the pond. she doesn't have a strategy guide for stuff like this... ]
[ There's no point in hiding it, not when she's feeling this desperate and powerless.
She would add Toi to the list, but she died before she could feel comfortable admitting how much she cares for him aloud. ]
I was an existence that was meant to be doomed from the beginning. I don't mind being doomed again, if it'll save the people I love. I don't care what I have to do, Pumpkin.
No. I don't know how much hold the house has on you and your family, but your sisters seem to have less chance of being absorbed by the house than the ducks.
[ If a murder can make a duck accidentally shoot, a monster can accidentally murder a duck. ]
But, like... now that I kinda get where you're coming from. Sure, they're basically my babies right now, but I know they're gonna die someday. No matter how much I love them, it's gonna happen anyway.
[ and pumpkin is but a simple furry because we didn't want to deal with Bullshit Like This ]
Um... okay, lemme put it this way... from this side, the best you can do is to keep encouraging the others? 'Cause being here is like... hm.
[ she thinks for a second ]
Think of this whole place as a computer. The other side is the main memory bank—anything that happens over there will get saved. But this side is only saved in the RAM—if you're here, then once this session ends, your data goes poof.
[ Unfortunately for Pumpkin, Meltryllis is a complicated artificial being made from another complicated artificial being. She's a little less artificial now because of cheating. ]
I was born in a supercomputer. On the equivalent of this side. [ She said she was a doomed existence, and she meant it. What substance were Alter Egos born with but the emotions used to create them? The emotions that they had to cling to? That didn't mean Meltryllis didn't try her best to survive and rise to the top as her own being with her own heart, but what's driving her need for this conversation are the emotions in her heart. ]
Your analogy won't work for me because the person I was born from is the worst cheater. [ Worst as a person, great as a cheater. ] She connected the side where all the data is supposed to be trashed and erased to the other side, so she could control it.
[ Cheating is in her code. The Sakura Five were born because of love. Some of them were born to love, and if Meltryllis can't do what she can for love, what purpose does she have?
She was never a proper Servant. All Meltryllis wants is to love. ]
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[ She nods at the duck trembling. ]
Pumpkin, I know you have rules you have to follow, but what are you willing to do for your ducks?
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Okay with the way you're saying that, I really don't know if I want to hear what else you wanna talk about.
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I used to be in a position where I had rules I couldn't break and I had to hope certain people would find out certain things for themselves. [ So even if she doesn't like it, she gets it. ] But right now, I just want to be able to save someone.
[ Two someones. ]
Is there any way you can help?
[ Because she's dead in some kind of purgatory state and feels too powerless like this. ]
I'm tired of being consumed by some entity that only thinks of its own pleasure.
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Are you talking about someone here?
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[ There's a flash of vulnerability before she's cool again. ]
Even if he can't be brought back to life, I don't want the house to absorb him. I'm bored of facilities and beasts consuming the people I love.
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. . .
[ she stares at melt for a very long time, head tilted curiously, before she asks, ]
Is it the greed demon guy?
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[ There's no point in hiding it, not when she's feeling this desperate and powerless.
She would add Toi to the list, but she died before she could feel comfortable admitting how much she cares for him aloud. ]
I was an existence that was meant to be doomed from the beginning. I don't mind being doomed again, if it'll save the people I love. I don't care what I have to do, Pumpkin.
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Wait, were you trying to say I think the ducks are more important than my own family?
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No. I don't know how much hold the house has on you and your family, but your sisters seem to have less chance of being absorbed by the house than the ducks.
[ If a murder can make a duck accidentally shoot, a monster can accidentally murder a duck. ]
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But, like... now that I kinda get where you're coming from. Sure, they're basically my babies right now, but I know they're gonna die someday. No matter how much I love them, it's gonna happen anyway.
Do you get what I'm saying?
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[ And this house doing what it's doing is before they have to. ]
I don't want the house to have the satisfaction.
[ If only because the more she learns, the more she feels like the house vibes with Kiara. ]
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Uh, kind of too late for that...
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I want it undone. Are you telling me there's no way? You said the house made the rules, but to do that, it has to do it from somewhere.
You know where, don't you? I don't need you to give me an exact location. Just tell me if you do.
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I mean... I couldn't give you an exact location anyway, 'cause it's one of those metaphysical kind of deals...
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that means it's a yes the house is a BEAST ]
That still means there has to be something that represents it somewhere.
[ Doesn't it?
She's the metaphysical personification of an emotion. ]
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Um... okay, lemme put it this way... from this side, the best you can do is to keep encouraging the others? 'Cause being here is like... hm.
[ she thinks for a second ]
Think of this whole place as a computer. The other side is the main memory bank—anything that happens over there will get saved. But this side is only saved in the RAM—if you're here, then once this session ends, your data goes poof.
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I was born in a supercomputer. On the equivalent of this side. [ She said she was a doomed existence, and she meant it. What substance were Alter Egos born with but the emotions used to create them? The emotions that they had to cling to? That didn't mean Meltryllis didn't try her best to survive and rise to the top as her own being with her own heart, but what's driving her need for this conversation are the emotions in her heart. ]
Your analogy won't work for me because the person I was born from is the worst cheater. [ Worst as a person, great as a cheater. ] She connected the side where all the data is supposed to be trashed and erased to the other side, so she could control it.
[ Cheating is in her code. The Sakura Five were born because of love. Some of them were born to love, and if Meltryllis can't do what she can for love, what purpose does she have?
She was never a proper Servant. All Meltryllis wants is to love. ]