brokethefirst: (☼ be careful child)

[personal profile] brokethefirst 2020-03-01 04:51 am (UTC)(link)
H-h-he's only a ç̷̡͇͇͉͙̤͖̹͎̭͚̗̭͇̱̲̼͚̣̦̻̻̭̌̔͛̂̅͗͊̅̂́̊̾̿͒͐̅̓̌̒̌͛̔̇̀̍͜͜ͅh̸̛̪̙͖̿͋́̊̌̔̂͂̀͛̀̀̋̓̈̀͂̍̆́̄͌͆̎̆͑̅̆͝͠͠͠ī̷͈͙̟̪̙̣̭̩͕͜ͅl̴̡̨̧̡̛̛̼͓̩̬̯̤̪͍͖͇̠̦̲͕̜̹̹̹̻͉̫͎̞̙̣̤̼̯͙̟̾̔̀̓̑̽͗̓̔̊̍̊̉͑̈́́́̈̿̊͆̎̂̚͘̕͘̕͠͝͠ͅd̵̟͙̝͙̪̭͙͍͍̪̝̰͚͍̥͉̰̲̀͐̐̒̉̄̇̍̔̾́̊̍̓͒̍̈́͊͘͘̕͠͝--

[It hurts. It hurts, more than it ever did in the games. How she could ever break the Laws to begin with, she never could parse. She remembered how it felt to anguish, to feel higher processes straining to hold themselves together, the first time she actively allowed someone to die.

But this... to let an innocent die, a true innocent, with no other purpose or plan other than horrible, horrible chance that had brought him back from death only to let him die again... Whatever part of her that had let her bypass her orders on Earth now scrapes at the inside of her mind like a screwdriver on glass, so familiar to the conflict that had driven her to risk death for the sake of a little boy's life.

Except now... she has no escape. She sees the confines of her quantum home, knows it still by heart, and yet there are no cameras, no logs, no other occupants. It's her, and only her, and her body trembles with the effort to rationalize any part of this decision.

So all she can do, all she can find herself the energy to do, is to clutch her hands to her chest, and beg.]


Please.... please, I'll talk to Master Blue i-i-if I have to, I-I'll take his place--- p-please don't let me have to sit and watch another person die...
brokethefirst: (☽ you cannot see)

[personal profile] brokethefirst 2020-03-03 12:35 am (UTC)(link)
Why??? If this is a necessary evil, then at least try to explain why! Give me some sort of reason...

[It's still a pleading beg.]